It's been a whole year now that I've been on the list for a heart transplant.
I sometimes say, I'm not sure if I should be happy about it. I said this to a friend of mine and she had a reply I will always remember. She said, "I think there is a lot to be happy about." And she is totally right. There is so much to be happy about. The waiting so long means that I continue to live in limbo, always waiting. But it also means that I've been given another year to live.
I remember when the nurse came in to tell me that I was approved for a new heart. I try my best to be strong at all times but that moment went straight to my heart, literally. It is a very stringent process to be approved for the transplant list. Unfortunately there are many people that don't get approved. They assess your overall health and mental state. Can you physically and emotionally accept the transplant. Well, on Thursday October 22, 2009 they told me I was given the chance to live. Live on. I was aware of the risks but I was convinced that I would succeed. And I will! Thanks to the evolution of science, the doctors and all of their staff. I will live on. That moment gave me a feeling of hope and strength. Hope that I will do the things I love to do again. And strength that I can push through whatever comes next. Live on. Live to be with my amazing husband and loving family. Live to make a difference for other people waiting for transplants, waiting for their life to change. Live forever thankful for the journey I have taken, never to resent it. Live happily. Live strong. Live completely. I will live on.